POSITIVE MEETING By kitkat

Metal doors with glistening white gloves to lock

Not a speck of life in dorms so white

Where with a code you enter and knock

Where with a tablet I'm unable to fight

Understanding nods meet me a day later

A notebook scribbled of thoughts today

I sit and stare at lips and nearly hate her

With all encouragement she declines to say

Things to set and so much to do

Its not so easy for the meager minority

But oh so clearly possible for you 

Ever taken a step in the shoes measured for me

Approximate baby steps to salvation sworn

Leaping to a world of planned times and dates

So no one will hate and have to mourn

Shoulders heavy with treacherous weights

Her nod irritates hesitant speech

Glazed eyes sporadically stare at sign behind 

Absorbing 'positive' ideas like a leech

I scream get off the norm and into my mind

In a nod i am reminded that i am a job to pay

Just another name and number

In her normal working day 

DESIRE by queenie

Slowly you whisper my name. Your breath hot against my chilled skin. My wicked mind racing with thoughts of sin. How naughty do I feel? How bad I have been? 

Misbehaving, immoral, mischievous!!

Rope testing against my skin a reminder of my position in this place. How good it feels to belong.To be owned. To be controlled. 

Waiting, wanting, desiring!!!

COLD RAIN FALLS FROM THE SKY By LadyRemington

Cold rain falls from the sky 

leaving me feeling broken inside. 

Tears freeze on my face 

seeking naught but a warm place. 

My blood slows

as if it froze. 

please someone hear my plea 

come and breath life into me. 

Slowly freezing from the inside out 

the cold air freezing my shout. 

All alone broken, frozen inside. 

Pleading with the air just to feel alive. 

I need you're touch to keep me alive. 

Warm this lonely frozen wasteland inside. 

Bring Me ever so gently back to life. 

Lay your warm body 

atop of mine 

warm my blood with your touch. 

Slowly but surely wake me up. 

Breath into me your sweet breath 

killing all traces of loneliness.

THE BOTTOM OF WATER By kitkat

The bottom of water

Lies a clear reason of white

Bitter tasting empathy breathes 

As all i knew to ever be right

Scornfully drifts and leaves

With the white comes dark

Shades of others encroach dreams

Little bitter as my friend becomes now

As nightmares are sweet as it seems

Words muddle as mind races to land

In sweet harmony I'm swept

Falling and stumbling too tired

Standing on command as it wounds

No longer in control or wired

I'm lost in a spin only sleep can cure

Sleep so sweet so pure

Sheets so soft as once so cruel

Eyes drift to somewhere only water can know

Somewhere that only a tablet can go

Take me and hold me

See me through the dark

My light in only dark i see

Is this the only salvation

In a glass I'm forever to be

A HAND GRASPS By kitkat

A hand grasps my heart and soul

Minds race as now feel whole

Imagining a future declined by so few

Do i fight to save me to save you?

Angels fly through the air with grace

Can't keep on this painted smile to keep face

Trying to fight the inevitable is beyond cruel

Feeling foolish and always being the fool

Road ends here as the track subsides

Where the inevitable truth duly hides

Unknowing is the shoulder meat to fall

Fetal position crawled up and small 

Light flash then dark to take upon me

Nothing to know and nothing but fear to see

A white glove awakens my body and mind

Is this the moment where fate becomes blind

I'M 20 THOUSAND FEET By kit

I'm 20 thousand feet above the sea

About to meet the girl of my dreams

Who seems to really love only me

I'm hoping all is as it seems

As if it is obscured by desire and delight

I'll feel empty, hollow, dead

Like the darkest blackest night

So come here, lie with me in bed

Nothing more, nothing less just be

Love each other, forget the others

Love who ever you like but love me

We can be friends, wife, lovers

Sometimes I know I am no good

I know I can be hard and insecure

But so far everything is ad it should

What we have is unfiltered yet so pure

Meant to be, fate, desired or possessed 

I don't know what I'm walking into

But making you happy is my only request

I don't know the meaning of this, but I know I love you

MY SILENT LIFE By ❣daysie❣ (raissa)

There, mouths move silently, where sound should be strewn

Faintest whispers lost, dying on a dry wind before caught

Missing whats gone, wishing for reprieve, melody I saught

Only punishment received. Curse the luck of the fates loom

Dying dream of the foolish girl, embrace the exhausting silence

Her sound not used, since not heard, traversing to mute

Segregated from sound the lonely quiet girl blows the flute

Of her silent life, the melody lost before its had, before it's had in terrible silence

WHO IS THIS PERSON By kit

Who is this person who plays with my heart

Makes me feeling whole not falling apart

With eyes as pure as a Jasmine tree scent

Who makes all my past sins suddenly repent

Alone in my heart I felt unsure and unknown

Now I have another heart I can call home

Doesn't matter distance as is just a number to me

In my dreams and thoughts it's her I see

So yes, perhaps it will be so hard

But fuk it, come here, I'll let down my guard

I feel so happy, I feel so overwhelmingly free

Just promise to always respect and love me

If you do so swear I'm yours for ever more 

To respect, to trust, to be whole, he'll with it, amour.

INSIDE MY SLEEVE By squirrels

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart, handing it to you, "careful it's fragile, and easily falls apart."

Extending your arms, you take the heart in your tender warm hands. It falls into a million shattered pieces - on the floor it lands.

You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and sadness in your eyes.

Apologies are not enough.

Looking at you with tears in my eyes, I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart that has fallen apart.

I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.

I need to put it together again, some how. some way.

Each piece of my heart has a memory so true. Each piece of my heart has part of you.

WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER TRYING By kit

Why do I even bother in trying

When all I wanna do is to fAll

To break down crying

Instead I have to shine tall

No one bothers to ask

They intend on such support

Instead it seems too much a task

So they smile and think the thought

'Why does she pretend that all is gone

Cant she just snap back like we must

One a scale of ten she pretends one

Attention that is her intention of lust

she says she is in a crowd but lonely still

It's pathetic and needn't must

It's her brain making all this will'

I UNDERSTAND that you don't know

I UNDERSTAND that you don't care

I KNOW you think I don't wanna go

But a heart and head always do tear 

Heart says this and head says that

Why am I bothering to write

WhAt exActly am I trying to say

Can I really be bothered to fight

Can I really be fucking arsed to stay

Everything I thought i had

Has long since gone so far

Everything just seems so dark and sad

I just stare at that infinite scar

It's all just got so terribly bad

For an unknown reason

All this has been reborn

My body is in infinite treason

Where heart and head is torn

BLACK ROSE by Black Rose

Dark eyes are watching me
Shadows hold me tight
Nightmares come on raven wings
With screams black as night
A cold wind whines through the trees
Satan whispers near
A light touch on my shoulder
A threat for all that's dear
Her telling me I'm worthless
In the dark all good is gone
A decision made before morning
Will I live to see the dawn?
Clouds obscure the moonlight
Faint hope no longer there
An ending to the madness
A solution I can't bear
I now know how to end it
I've been shown my own demise
But somewhere a soft voice whispers
"Stop, you know he lies!"
From deep within a fire kindles
A spark from the small voice
Another breeze blows stronger now
Revealing another choice
I lower the blade from my wrist
Hands shaking, my fingers release
Slight damage already inflicted
Blood fills the tiny crease
The snake asks me what happened
His voice a puzzled drawl
My breathing finally slowing down
"Now!" I hear the voice call
The fire's now gone wild
The blade back in my hand
Possessed once more by fire
Blood spills on holy land
And as the ground drinks thirstily
Like blood the sky goes red
The decision finally made now
It's dawn and I'm not dead I
awaken from my dream
Studying an old battle mark
Seeing blood anew there
Knowing I'm still in the dark
Quietly the wind whines again
Eerily beautiful in a way
Like all the devils deceptive tricks
Hidden by light of day
Only in darkness is it revealed
The softened look of our sins
He tempts on with black roses
Then with their thorns he wins
So I send this warning
Beware the seed Satan sows
For even if it's beautiful
Nothing's more deadly than a black rose.

WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU MEET THE ONE by niamh(PP)

What do you do when you meet the one ..THE ONE, who smells like your fondest childhood memories, feels like your sweetest dreams made tangible and real. The One whose touch anchors your body and whose voice slips into the recesses of your soul and ignites all the dark shadows that have held you imprisoned in fear, guiding you gently and firmly into the light of love and hope?

HONESTY By kitkat

Its true how can you love another

When all you hold is self hate

But what happens when I'm around you

You get rid of all my pain of late

I don't understand all you do to me

I don't care of any implications of truth

But you have shown me such beauty

You have shown me the beauty in hidden proof

Words spin around my mind at night

When you're around i cannot stop or hide

Every part of my being is broken into

You have found a part i thought had died

By no means do i love you as it is

But with adoring eyes i dream of such a kiss

And with this gentle loving image i have 

I can slumber to a gentle yet fragile wish

WORDS PIERCE YOUR SOUL By kitkat

Words pierce your soul

As my mind races ahead

You read my thoughts

My writing wishing me dead

You say it has beauty

Yet its dark and full to hate

Weakening rhymes tongue tie

So you read twice and anticipate

Simple words prove simple hand 

As i write to understand my life

In a dream i am awakened

It tears apart torture like a knife

Subtle hints to my daydreamed mind

Helping you understand me

Help you help myself to find

FOR ERIC By black rose

If I could put into words the way I love you

It would be like light from the sun

Like describing it's brightness to the sightless 

Like telling a stone how a river can run

If I could capture my feelings on paper

It would be like a picture of rain

Though beautiful as a still life

The feeling? It wouldn't explain 

YESTERDAY By ❣daysie❣ (raissa)

Yesterday the girl was loved without spite, despite blight

Seasons past, today girlish charm perceived with scorn

Wishing in silent agony the Father could take back being born

Yesterday she was naive and unworldy; today's life, a fight

Cancer. A tumor. What a bother, such a chore

A chore that their little girl never hoped to be

A task to be taken daily by three

Thrice loved, triple scorned. Pray for the dreaded angel to untether love, usher me to deaths farthest shore

CHURCH BELLS By kitkat

Church bells enlighten me

Grace falls by my feet

The priest stares blankly mourning

Staring where eyes fail to meet

On this day its clear to the few

That heaven is a state of heart

A stranger joins and takes a pew

As the organ sings its praise apart

The few kneel and whisper their grace

Some even whisper with eyes closed

As they cannot meet the priests face

The stranger who joined does not include

In the whispering voices of prayer

She simply sits awaiting the interlude

So she can just be at peace without care

I CAN'T LOOK AT YOU By kitkat

I can't look at you

As you stand tall and strong

Why do i feel as i do

Why do i feel so wrong

Your beauty so magical

Enchanting all my heart

Your coldness understandable

Yet it still tears apart

I can't keep my image up

I can't just hold you afar

Each kiss you awaken me with

Leaves a deep voided scar 

So hold me close

Or please push me away

Please just be honest with me

I'm sorry how i feel today

MY MIND IS RACING By kitkat

My mind is racing

How the fuck can i do this

So alone and so scared

I walk back and forth pacing

I look in the mirror with disgust

As a mask stares back

I scratch away the paintwork

As figures stare with just

A project for so many

To mould into something they know

Do they even give a fuck

Or are they simply curious of me

I'm just a doll to pretend and play

Moving my life as they desire

I stand there not fighting

I stand in disgust and in dismay

YOU TELL ME THINGS By kitkat

You tell me things get better

Ha! You tell me all will be right

You tell me to keep looking forward

You tell me to stand and fight

You tell me people care

You tell me that things improve

You tell me they're always there

You tell me that you understand

You tell me I'm not alone

You tell me to hold your hand

You tell me you will guide me

You tell me to sleep tonight

You tell me to take my medicine

You tell me to do what's right

You tell me so many things

You tell me to listen close

You tell me to never give in

You tell me to keep up living

You tell me to not let it win

YOUR TOUCH by LadyRemington

Your touch awakens me More then I thought I could ever be Your touch intensifies leaving me mystified The things you do Leave me craving you The words you say I dwell on all day These feelings are hard to hide And even worse when im denied The n of you lips My hands on your hips Moving together as one Before the dawning of the sun Age never felt this way before Its because of you im sure Everything you say Keeps me thinking about you all day A sweeter addiction there could never be The addiction being you with me.

I THROW By kitkat

I throw the razor across the room

As i stare blankly at the water

My heart races full of doom

Make my life a little shorter

Fate calls as i slip beneath

The water drowns my tears

Should i dare to breath

The water washes my fears

I sit up with a start as my eyes sting

My lungs ache as i take some air

This feeling is a cruel evil thing

I try to imagine you standing there

I stand and dry off the sin

You may not know this now

But you helped my courage win 

So stand there and take a bow

I FEEL THIS TENDER HEART By Miss J

I feel this tender heart stop beating

I drop the knife from my hand

I feel my last breath coming

I can't even stand

I throw the knife across the room

Replaying the memories in my head

I light one single match

And throw it on the bed

I take that fake purple box

The one you know you've seen

I close it up tightly

It was just a stupid dream

I take everything I own

And throw it on the bed

I can't use it now anyway 

Let the flame engulf it instead

POWER IN GIVING By kitkat

Nails run down my spine

Spineless i sit straight 

Not looking or feeling

Pain is pleasure of late

Her eyes so gentle

Yet in which i cannot look

The floor cold

Yet comforting with warmth

If i may in truth be told

Her safety lines too high

Make me feel something

In no feeling i wish to cry

Take my power

Take everything i have to show

Let me feel power in letting it go

Give take is this relationship tonight 

Have my everything closed eyes

Be my dark and be my light 

IMAGINATIONS BORDER By black rose

Imaginations border shifts

The lines of reality are fey

There's no distinction anymore

No black and white, just gray

Time can stop forever

But still a clocks hands turn

Moments can be frozen

And ice can somehow burn

Love can make you hurt

Joy can make you cry

Tears can make a river

Memories never die

None of these make any sense

But somehow they are true

When imaginations border shifts

Who knows what reality can do?

IT TWISTS By kitkat

It twists. Like a knife in my heart

It hurts. Pain iv never known before

An overwhelming sense tears apart

My heart ceases to feel another

I never understood what you see in reason

I watch her eyes wonder i think i love her

As magic as life can cruelly be

A desperate vision entrances my minds view

As desperation and black is all i see

To devote myself to a future i can't imagine or feel

Hurts more than the stabbing beat of my chest

Nothing feels right or even real

In a fiction i am written to die tonight

The hand that writes my fate trembles

The author with a blank look ceases to write

My story ends in a blank clear page

Her emotions to fearful to write anymore

Her pain to real to feel and full of rage

THE WINTER RUNS DEEPER By ❣daysie❣ (raissa)

The winter runs deeper, 

deeper than before. Inching closer and

closer I fear no end. Every beat, torture; 

the unbearable reminder of sin. 

Vision fades darker, no light perceived. 

Sitting alone, contemplating defeat; 

must bear it for them, must bear it for all. 

Failure remains constant, it is what's

expected from soul, mind, and body; 

every fiber within. The end would be too easy, 

must shy from ashes. Must shy from ruin.

EXPLORE By kitkat

I have an urge to throw myself into a world i don't know 

This urge so strong and invalid within my heart

Imaginations taking me to worlds i don't know

A world as different to mine surely tears me apart

This world that i speak of is set behind your view

Completely disguised is my visions that i have of you

You may be my light in a room so cold and bare

But within your shadow is my knowledge so i do as i do

As knowing you're guiding hands are tenderly there

Explore myself as my finger tips imagine and find

This world within that only you can explore and lead

My heart leads where only a true heart can find blind

Give me my all my love me give me all i imagine and need

Take me and hold me and mould me in your own

Listen to me yet deafen me show me all you've shown

THE COLD WIND By LadyRemington

The cold wind pierces my armour

The freezing rain poring down bitterly

A single heartfelt tear

slides down my cheek

And mingles with the cold and the drear

My armour was unpenetratable

Or so I though

But along you came

And proved armour to be naught

My senses fail me

As thoughts assail me

is this the end

Of the frail me

You've weakened me I cried

But to what a avail 

Ill never know.

How ever did you penetrate

my bullet proof armour

Cupid must now be armed

With penetrating rounds

A .357 straight through my heart

That's what it feels like when were apart.

I tried so hard

To walk away

but something about you

Made me stay.

Will my senses harshfully return

When you decide

that im not good enough

For you to hide

From the world by my side.

What will I do when you wake up one day

And realize that im no good for you

The fears are haunting me

From the inside

Perhaps im overthinking

But what if I am right?

Will I wake up one night

And find you've taken flight

But take my heart before you go

TAKE CARE By kitkat

You left me knowing

As i left you not showing

Not caring of the mess you made

As i hold on to my sharpened blade

Let a tear fall my love 

As i will pray to up above

I pray for you to remember back

As my breath is taken from by a panic attack

Breath leaves me unsure of place

As i am breathless and pure of face

Makeup blinds my eyes with tears

As nothing frightens me, not even my fears

A gentle hand leads me closer

As much as i love you i hate her

That beast you shown me i despise

The truths you told me now known as lies

Maybe you were needed elsewhere my someone

Yet as i look around i see you are gone

Clearly i was not all you desired to see

So I'll let you go, be happy and be free

Ill sit here waiting for my one to find

Until then my love will be lost and blind

Happiness is a state not a thing i know

So leaving your mind i will surely go

Take care, good luck, find what you see

As i promise you this. Never again will it be me

CATCH ME By kitkat

'Just a fool when i met you'

Whispers the woman i am today

On that Friday you knew what i did

I kneeled and sobbed and knelt to pray

The dates blur into an unknowing fog

But still the truth remains so clear

There's always an end to the darkness

Its just bleached by dismay and fear

I stand tall remembering me weak

Reminded everyday by my tears

Just hoping one day you will find me

Maybe when the unforgiving fog clears

One day you WILL find me

So tall i will always strive to stand 

And as s fall into the darkened abyss

In your loving arms i will land 

IT'S YOURS NOW By LadyRemington

Its yours now

Just so you know.

It beats for someone

that ill never have

Damn cupid

and his armour penetrating rounds.

As im laying non the ground

the cold rain falling down

I think of you

and warmness fills my bossem

As I take my last breath

I see your face

I reach out to touch it

And it disappears into space.

Above the world im flying

Slowly drifting higher

I feel your arms take me

in one final embrace

Im not good enough for you now

Cause im gone and your still alive

I faintly hear a gunshot

As I once again drift off

Then I open my eyes and behold you

Floating by my side

Even death cannot keep us apart

As I realize what you did

You gave it all to be with me

Your life you sacrificed

Now lace your fingers through mine

And let's find out what happens

now that we have both died.

LAST WORDS By kitkat

My eyes stare blankly at you

I brush your hair from your cheek

I look deep in your oceanic eyes

That soul that makes me so weak

I fake a brave smile as i word goodbye

This end to such a romance kills me

My eyes glisten as i hold back tears

Your soul is all that stares back at me

I can see that you are also hurting

As it seems that i am the end to this

Would it be so cruel of me

To request a final kiss?

I gently brush your lips

With my trembling fingertips

I know this is not what you want

As in my heart is where you belong

But for something so right as it seems

Why does it feel so wrong?

So with a last kiss i hereby say

That i will remember your soul

Until my last breath on my dying day

CONCLUSION By Miss J

I've come to a conclusion. I've thought about awhile I wrap this chain around your neck, look down at you and smile....I feel your heartbeat through the chain as I lead you to the bed.I tell you all the things that I've been dreaming in my head. I lift you from the floor and move your hair out of your face..you now will be mine til the end of the human race

AS WE WALK By LadyRemington

As we walk

Hand in hand through the crowded hall

Someone trips and I fall

Someone grabs while im gettin up

They pick you up and throw you

and I run fast to catch you

You land on my

As people laugh

I pick you up and start to run

We have to escape from this crazy hell

We get home and your crying

'Why do they have to be so mean'

You tearfully scream.

I go to your side and open your door

I carry you in the house

And sit on the floor

Wrapping my knife cut arms around you. You absentmindedly trace my cuts

as I bury my weeping face in your neck

We stay that way for the rest of the day

both crying on each other

And holding on for dear life

You fall asleep in my arms

And I carry you to the bed

Ever so tenderly tucking you in

Tomorrow we'll wake up and do this all again

The morning comes and we prepare for school

The pain gets worse with every day

I want so much to take your pain away.

'I have a solution' you gently say

Holding a gun and a knife in your hands

'Ill end your pain and you end mine'

you smile and say

The solution seems so simple

Why hasn't it been thought of before.

'I want you one last time before we do this though' I lovingly say

And for one last night were almost happy

forgetting the pain that others have placed on us.

In the morning we wake up

'I want the gun' I say 

'So I can be sure to take your pain away'

The knife you hold to my neck

As the gun I place to your head

I whisper 'I love you' 

and hear you say the same

'Together forever we'll end this pain'

As I feel you slowly pull the blade across my waiting neck

I slowly pull the trigger and blood splats on the floor

I lie on the ground bleeding to death

your blood mingling with mine

I gasp and say 'i love you thank you for taking my pain away'

One last breath is all I have and with it I grab your hand

'Theyll find us together and remember us this way.'

My last breath taken I fade away

As I slowly breath your name

I vaguely hear the sirens

And drifting away

the memory of your face

The last thing I see.

REPORTING RELUCTANCE By kitkat

Sliding one nail through my chest

The pain too much to understand

With screaming silence i lie

I grab hold of my breast

Where heart meets pain

I shudder and ask why

Further in it increases its hold

In a tablet only dreams can behold

In a hospital bed i shake

Too many years of desires

Too many purified drinks to take

My mind bought back to truth

Back to him on a cross

Suffering is the only one i know

Crossed arms debate my fate

In a meeting of minds I'm discussed

Too little too fucking late

In fate i am with lust

With this agonizing pain

I shall slowly sink and die

Discuss my mind so clearly so sane

FROM HERE TO ETERNITY By jerzeyfresh

Knelt at the window, waiting for you to come home 

Nose pressed to the glass - but you never showed 

Patiently waiting, day in and day out 

Always looking, but you were nowhere to be found

One hand on my collar, clutching it tight 

The other over my heart, feeling something wasn't right 

Feeling sinking deeper, dread now setting in

Not wanting to believe you to be capable of betraying me again

The truth was worse then any trick my imagination could play

I didn't want to leave but you made it impossible to stay

More crushing still you gave your secret to others to keep

And keep they did, with no regard for me

Me - the one who served you faithfully, unwavering in my stance

Full of conviction - believing us to have a fairytale romance

Now all I can wonder is why you picked me to deceive

So many answers I deserve that I'll never receive

I'm consumed with wondering if anything was true

The woman I loved so completely - was any of her you?

Most say it doesn't matter; they tell me to move on

I appreciate the advice but it's easier said then done

You've ripped the stars from my eyes

Forced me to question every "truth" - pick apart the lies

The things we shared, what you thought I should know

Your taste in movies, how you take your coffee, middle name - all a good show

After all this, some of it was real - I need to believe

Because regardless of how you really felt - it was never fake for me.

NOT A FUCKIN NAME By kitkat

So you think you can close your eyes

Let me get this straight in my head

You're happy to never know or care?

Happy enough me dead?!

I just wanna write and ask for truth

Now am i anything to you?

Or was i just a toy till you got bored?

Tell me what you want to do

Pleading and begging i ask

I ask as not knowing is worse than knowing

What is it you want from me?

Where is 'us' going?

Am i asking too much of you?

Can you see the pain in my soul?

Oh you know you fucking bitch

One touch will have me begging and returning whole

KEEP YOUR DISTANCE By kitkat

This wreck you all see here today

Half the vessel i used to be

This thing that you stare at

I would never recognise to be me

I'm half the smile i used to share

I have half the height i used to walk

This was all before i learnt to care

To be human empathy we must know

But here today i yell 'fuck Odd sweet feelings'

Leave me alone, leave me be, please just go

For feeling for another hurts and weakens

Numbs my senses leaving me shrunk

I beg and plead for forgiveness 

Clarity to pure as it seems today

Leaving me spineless and wretched drunk

Nothing more to say on the matter

But i have enough pain for two

So selfish is my command to you

You have yours as i have mine

If you keep your distance from the beast

We will both be just fine

HIS by niamh(PP) *

…She dropped the silk robe and opened the shower door, stepping into the sauna like heat and letting it envelope her. Her thoughts, as always, focused on how best to please Him. She took up the soap and the slightly roughened loofah and began to lather her body; thinking of polishing it, making certain her skin would be smooth and tempting to His touch. Tilting her head back she massaged the lightly scented shampoo through her long tresses, knowing He much preferred the subtle clean scents to overly perfumed one, a smile lighting her face as she stepped back into the heated stream of water letting it roll over her skin, rinsing completely and enjoying the warmth, hoping she would bring a smile to His face today. She turned, allowing another moment of heat over her skin before turning off the water, stepping wet from the shower and grabbing the thirsty towel from its rack. Drying every inch of her skin she thought again of the pride in His gaze when she met His eye, she lived for that.

A MILLION WAYS TO LOVE SOMEONE By black rose

There are a million ways to love someone,
A million ways I know.
You touched my heart and brought forth light,
And taught loves seed to grow.

I love you more than life itself;
I love how you make me feel;
I love you with all my heart,
So much I cant believe its real.

You can love someone for loving you,
Even if they make you cry.
You can fall in love without even knowing,
Without ever having to try.
You can love someone for being there,
When things in life seem dark. I love you for doing this,
You've really left your mark.

You made me feel whole when I was in pieces,
You warmed my heart of stone.
I loved you even when I was shattered.
And when I felt all alone.

No matter what road life showed me,
Or how happy I tried to seem.
A piece of me was missing,
Part of my heart I couldn't redeem.

No matter how perfect the picture,
The puzzle wouldn't fit right.
You were my missing piece,
You are my guiding light.

I love you when you talked to me,
And when you yell, I love that too,
Even when I wanted to quit,
It is impossible not to love you.

You make me feel like living.
Like I have a reason to be.
Maybe my purpose waste find you.
Maybe... Someday we'll see.

But now I’m content to tell you,
My love has never been so strong,
After every mistake I've made,
After everything I've done wrong.

All this has done is prove to me
I can't take not having you,
You are the center of my world,
My love will always be true.

There are a million ways to love someone,
A million stars at night.
A million reasons I'll never leave,
A million things gone right.

Because when you are near my life seems full,
You would never let me fall,
There are a million ways to love someone,
And you have shown me them all.

KNEELING GAMES By kitkat

You will never know the betrayal i feel

Dispose of me as nothing ever was

Imagine for a second that dreams were real

Would you still return with a frown for this

What would happen if the stars above fell?

As to my knees i beg of you this here today

Do you think for a moment you would surrender?

Say those words i beg of you to proudly say?

With your head held so high you flee

Leaving me weak and so cruelly unsure

Was i anything to you? Or a cruel horrific game?

Was i anything to you forever clean and pure?

I doubt it from the bottom of my wavered soul

That to you i meant anything so clean

So left here kneeling watching you turn and leave

Left here to forever daydream and believe

OH JUST DAMN YOU By kitkat

Oh just damn you 

Just discard me like yesterdays meat 

Do you expect me to care? 

Expect me to land on my feet?! 

Well just damn you 

For the deep within cries 

Every smile you given me 

Oh memories and such dies 

You threw me out as nothing 

Not caring how this will fight 

Standing up on a cliff now 

Awaiting my bearable flight 

You did not do this to me 

But helped in the pain i feel 

I just wanna feel something now 

i just regretfully wanna feel real 

Now you get on with your life 

Oh how happy you must be now 

As for me my curtain is closing 

Without your stand i take my bow

STOP MYSELF by kitkat

Stop myself

Hold myself

Fuck myself over 

Make me love her

Make love to her

Fuck you

Fuck me

Be all 

I'm destined to be

Fight it

Love it

Try to take it away

Taste it

Deny it

Live another day

Fuck you

Fuck me too

Words of a dying face

Hold me 

Love me

Every time

Every place

Passion here

Hate there

Make it known

Make it clear

Just shut up

Let me hear 

Heartbeat 

Fuck you

Fuck me

Fuck this 

SHE CONTROLS ME By kitkat

She controls me

With a grin or dominance

She understands my head

And controls my heart

My breathing her breath

The smell of her touch

Brings desire of belittled death 

She holds me day and night

Never close always apart

Her whispers scream to me

Her eyes inflict such scenes

Why do i see all she desires to see

She has this control

Taken not given not planned 

Nails scratch where others hide

I'm kneeling weak and unsure

As her twitch kills me inside

Should i follow this desired road

Or run to safety

Forever shall i hide

I understand her intentions

Cruel desired bitter knowing

Her grin is slowly fading

Salvation is showing

THE STORM by niamh(PP) *

She knew she shouldn’t be out. It was late, nearly midnight already. The full moon glowed high in the sky, illuminating the path in front of her in the hazy shades of silver and blue~fae light she’d always heard it called. She sighed and moved gracefully along the path. She knew it so well now, traveled it as often as she could, as often as nature allowed. Her bare feet found the path well worn and softened by the freshly fallen autumn leaves.She walked with purpose, feeling the tension in the air increasing by the moment. She’d always been fascinated by storms, even as a child, now she had a very adult reason to be entranced by them. She wanted to be there before the storms struck~ to see if HE would be there

IN SUCH A CRIPPLING TIME By kitkat

In such crippling times i am truly all there

Your pet, your sub, my mistress you are

You cut my skin, but pierce through me more

In depth inside your touch does scar

Wounds heal as bruises do fade

But those whispers linger on my lips

Those chains that corrupt my pulse

Makes all i know enchanted as my heart skips

I desire and crave all your attention 

Your little pet now such a whore 

Craving your touch and cruel games

You, my mistress, my one true lure

Tempted by so few

In this deadly game of will

Do you ever desire me

Or keep me to torture and kill?

YOUR NAME IS LIKE A TATTOO By LadyRemington

Your name is like a tattoo

I want carved on my chest

You're memory forever

Burned inside my brain.

I want so much to hold you

To feel your arms again

I want for you to whisper

Things only meant for me

Touch me where you want to

I am entirely yours

Carve your name slowly into my chest

Make me scream and cry

Make me bleed and sigh

Tell me that you love me

More than all the rest

Kiss me like you've never

kissed anyone before

Love me like you've never

Loved anyone before

Tell me all your secrets

And ill tell you all of mine

Look deep into my eyes

While you do these things to me

Tell me that you want me

For all eternity

Let me be your hero

And ill save you from yourself

Let me be your lover

Ill protect you from all else

Let me trust you with everything I can

Let me love you

all my life.

You can be Lois

let me be your clark

Ill save you from everything

and guard you in the dark.

You are my kyptonite

The only thing that weakens me

Let me be your superman

and ill set your spirit free

BEAUTY By kitkat

As i walk in

Chains glisten against your hair

I can already feel the cold against my skin

And the burn from that candle over there

Where do you want me?

When do you want to begin?

You stand there as you glance behind

I look back to a purple box

Wondering the weapon you will find

You tell me to strip off my clothes

And smile as i shyly undress

I glance around the room

Chains and leather makes a mess

Upon your clean white walls

From an earshot to the neighboured wall

I hear a cry of submission

I hear the pleasured calls

You tell me to lie on the bed

Clean and crisp the sheets there are 

I hear the sound of metal on skin

Sounds too close but yet too far

I close my eyes i have faith in you

I feel so cold yet warm with love

Something cold on my neck

How do you do what you do?

I open my eyes as you lean over

As you pierce my skin

As you graze my shoulder

Your blade so cold yet touch so warm

Your breath on my ear shelters me

You ensure my breath

By letting my pulse be

I lean forward to let lips meet

You slap me down and hold me

You attach cold shackles to my feet

And a chain around my neck

I bite my lip with a grin

That you know means iv already won

You just keep hold of that knife miss

I promise i won't run

You run your blade slowly down

The metal against my skin

I arch myself towards you

Allowing you to win

The blade runs down my thigh

As your teeth enters my chest

I promise you my captivity

I promise you the best

HIS COLLAR by lil devil

What does a collar mean to you?  Is it a fashion accessory? Or is it made from velcro added &  removed at the wearer or collarers whim?

I believe that wearing your Dominants collar means that not only that you have given the gift of yourself completely but also that your Dominant has accepted the responsibility to care for His/Her submissive.  Its a symbol of His/Her love and devotion-- not just a mere sign of ownership.