WALKING DOWN THIS CROWED ROAD by LadyRemington

Walking down this crowded road 

Walking quietly with my head hung low 

Shuffling feet 

On dirty streets 

The only sound I hear 

Moving in the same direction 

Following the dwindling crowd 

Where we're heading 

I'm not quite sure 

But following along 

Down the same road 

Is getting rather tiresome 

People are disappearing 

And I'll soon be alone 

I suppose I could turn around 

And blaze my own trail against the crowd 

I could be different 

And stand apart 

But there's something about being alone 

That weighs heavy on my heart 

It's all to familiar 

Pain starts to burn 

As slowly against the crowd I turn 

I'll be different 

I won't blend in with the rest of the world 

I'll stand out 

Even if alone it marks me 

Someday hopefully 

I'll find someone to be with me 

Who's just as different if not more so 

Then me

A SOLE FLOWER IN A FROZEN LAND by LadyRemington

A sole flower in a frozen land 

Bravely spreads it's petals 

And courageously takes a stand 

Alone in this barren place 

A speck of color 

In a snow covered land 

The only thing that's living 

Everything else is frozen 

It took it's root 

Despite the cold 

And opened up looking for the sun 

The sun showed up 

And gave it life 

Blessed the little flower 

For being brave enough 

To be the first sign of the coming spring 

Other flowers see and gather 

The courage to take a stand 

And very soon 

This barren land 

Is full of flowers that took a stand 

Full of color 

And full of courage 

The flowers are taking back 

This forgotten strand 

It just took one 

To have the courage 

For all the rest 

To gather strength and in oppression 

Stand and do the right thing 

Now the flowers all over the place 

Have taken back what the cold claimed 

This land is once again theirs 

But it just took one 

To start the spring.

WAVE OF EMOTIONS by Seiko

Felling coming

Feelings fleeting

Like the rolling tides

Of the roaring ocean

Never knowing

When they'll come

But constantly trying

To sort them to one whole

Maybe he was right

And I am clinging

To a girl that treated me

Like no one even deserves

Or maybe I truly did love her

or at least did

Till I got so mixed up

And could no longer tell

Rolling on a wave

Of ever increasing turmoil

Will I ever sort out

How I actually feel about her

THOUGHTS FROM 3/8/12 BY Ariana SIMI

WHY CAN'T I BE? 

Why can't I be? Why can't I be hard? Why can't I let it go? Rip it from my chest this thing that brings me agony. GO AWAY! Your hurting me. You consume me but wont let me die. Please I beg of you let me slip into that inky darkness make me forget the ambrosia of your taste the tenderness of your touch. I cant live anymore. Breathing is a chore. Please give me my final embrace.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

You know what? I know I threw you away. What do I want? How the hell do I know?? All I know is that happiness alludes me smiles are pasted on. I should be content but all I see is emptiness. Yea I got what I wanted but maybe just maybe its not what I needed.....

A CRYING DAY by Amaranth

Today is a crying day

Today I will push you all away

All my close companions and friends

Will see me crying with no apparent end

You will be concerned

Wondering about the cause

Sobbing uncontrollably

With no room for pause

Today I cry , powerless you all feel

But don't fear my friends

This is helping me heal

As my friends you give me guidance and light

You stand together to help me win my fight

A fight for happiness

A life with no pain

Out of the blackness

Letting me see through the rain

I might push away 

But it is a temporary thing

Because this is a war

I am going to win

Now I have my army

Of love and support

My demons will regret

This war they have wrought

I cannot divulge

The mess behind these tears

What has left me living so long 

In pain and fear

But I implore to you my dearest friends

Give me my occassional day of tears

Because they are nearing the end

So I give you my thanks

You know, I'm OK

My heart is with you all

On this, my crying day

Amaranth

14 March 2012

I CLOSE THE DOOR TO THE HOTEL ROOM by Knightly Raider *

I Close the door to the hotel room sitting in a chair in the corner as you and your friend kneel on the bed facing each other. Both smiling excited. You close the distance meeting in the middle, a bit nervous. She puts her hand on yours raising it extending your finger. Her lips wrap around it. Her mouth warm as her tongue slides over your finger sucking it. Your nipples swell as she pulls it out lowering your hand to her breast. The wet finger a little chilled as she squeezes your hand causing you to squeeze her breast. 

OVER FOR NOW by Poison Ivy

We cannot hold on to our love for much longer,

We need this break to make me be stronger,

You will always have a special place in my heart,

And if i ever change my mind,

It will be you I come back to, 

I don't expect you to wait for me,

Because I don't know how long it will take for me to be me myself again,

I try to hide my pain,

Behind this fake painted smile,

But i can't see past it,

You have blurred my vision,

It's time accept it, that maybe we are no longer meant to be,

Friends are all we are going to be,

For now, we will see,

But if it's meant to be,

Then I will find a way back to you,

For now I need time,

Time to figure out if it's you I really want, 

My heart is torn and shattered,

I've no fight left in me no more,

I need this break for me,

So I can finally make the choice that's right for me.

TWO THOUGHTS by Ariana SIMI

BlackHole of Destruction

I left you but didnt I screwed up but I did it for you no clue of my heart no imagination to my pain im a blackhole im a love that knows no bounds I destroyed you but didnt you know I destroyed myself I am you heart one in the same now there is no love for me I am truly heartless

Dark Heart today

I let the knife bite my flesh the release is sweet. It helps. It helps me get rid of the pain I hold. Lies I told you the pain and release was for you always for you the blood I let is in your name. So quietly I scream for you but you cant hear it. Im still screaming a wail of a dying soul.

LYING HERE WITH YOU by LadyRemington

Lying here with you 

Nothing else in the whole world matters 

We don't have to say a thing 

To know what the other is thinking 

Relaxed and safe that's how this is 

No one could come between us 

I say something to you 

But you don't reply 

You've fallen asleep 

With your head on my chest 

I'll stay awake for a while 

Just to watch you sleep 

I'll memorize the pattern of your breathing 

And count the breaths you take 

I'll gently trace 

Every outline of your beautiful face 

I'll run my fingers through your hair 

And gently kiss your forehead 

Nothing in this whole world 

Could make this moment any better 

My heart skips a beat 

As I realize you're the only one for me 

Everything about you 

Means so much to me 

I think I'll go to sleep now 

I'm getting rather tired 

But when I wake up 

And see you lying with me 

I'll fall in love all over again 

With you 

The girl of my dreams 

Hoping and wishing 

That I never ever lose you.

WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR LOVE? by Poison Ivy

What happened to our love?

It used to be so bright,

Loving, laughing, caring,

Then soon caught the night,

You were my one and only love,

I cared for you too much,

Then something happened,

I don't know what but I feel like you deceived me,

Your attitude changed, your behaviour to,

I never felt so desperate, so cold and all alone,

But I tried to forget, tried to push it out my mind,

But it just kept on creeping back up,

I loved you so much, and got nothing in return,

It just hurts to ponder where we went wrong,

Everything I have was because of you,

You took it all from me and broke my heart in two,

I can no longer be your safety net,

It's time for me to go,

I was scared of losing at one point, 

Now I realise that this is not meant to be no more,

You'll always have a place inside of me,

But now I must go.

LOVE ME LIKE YOU USED TO by Poison Ivy

Why do you leave in this world all alone?

Why do you treat me so cold?

The torment, the pain the tears that I cry,

But yet you still look down on me.

Do I disgust you that much that you can't bare to look at me?

You put me down you make frown,

But yet I still stay by your side,

I'm the fool that puts up with you,

But I still can't find myself leaving you,

You don't hear the tears I cry,

When I'm lying in bed at night,

You've broken me, 

I've become someone I don't know anymore,

In time I'll find the strength to finally get up and leave,

But until then all I wish is for you to love me like you used to.

MY EYES by Amaranth

This reflective glass

Staring back at me

The blackest face 

Bound, not free

Locked in this neverending fight

Never can the light

Bring brightness an joy

To this soul that is mine

There are no spectacles

Tinted in pink

What everyone sees is not me

I see whats real

I am shooting at the moon

Having unreal dreams

Never will I be happy

As I am dark and miserable

Not free

No hugs, no sadness please

Because this is what I am meant to be

Amaranth

8th March 2012

WHO AM I by Ariana SIMI

You kiss me then smack me you tell me you love me then you ignore me you hug me then push me away you tell me im beautiful then treat me as if I was ugly you parade me around out of everyones sight you want me when no one is looking am I truly your mate or am I just your bitch

FAKE by Poison Ivy

The smile I wear is as fake as this fur, 

The tears that I cry are as real as my life,

Why do you do this to me? give me so much pain,

The things I do for you yet you still treat me this way,

I sit late at night and wondered what went wrong,

Tears stain my pillow as they fall from red stained eyes,

I blame myself for letting it get this bad,

I should have said something, instead of being mad,

The lonely nights, leave me to ponder,

Do you really want to be here anymore?

My heart is screaming "I love you",

But my head is saying go,

How much longer can my heart hold on to you?

THE QUEEN IS DEAD (part 2) by Queen Kitteh

Nothing visible before me, I wander through this dream. A Thick cloud of fog encamping about this place. Milky white suffocating everything it touches. Blood red contrast draped over my shoulders, trailing behind me in twelve yards of fabric. I stand with dull green stars numbly staring out into the morning dark as the sun begins to rise, and with it the wave of fog crashing in. As it descends to trap me, I scream in its wake, trying to remain still, denying myself the flight I so desire to take. To run far away from here, out into the woods, and across the river, until I reach the meadow of my serendipity. But I don't flee, I stay, and scream until my soul has found the strength to settle, to let me breathe. Anxiety rising up into my throat, struggling to focus enough to collect my senses. I begin to wander involuntarily out into the mist, the cloud filling my lungs, the cold, heavy, wet claws sinking into my flesh as I continue to walk farther and farther away into the fog. The fine hairs on my neck standing, on my arms, my back, all of my body alarmed, a cold sweat taking hold of me. When I hear my name whispered into my ear, whipping around to find nothing but the vast empty cloud. now all at once, my name echoing. in a snake like manner, eerie, creeping, tempting, taunting. All directions, a thousand voices calling me. I sink to the ground, holding my head, covering my ears trying to block out the whispers, now growing louder, and louder, shrieking. Sending me into intense fear and terror. I feel a presence beyond the fog, I open my eyes to find the clearest pair of blue eyes piercing my soul to the core. Nothing but red and blue, bright against the stark white fog. as suddenly and as fearfully as it came the fog reversing, and the body of a broad shouldered noble man stepping towards me. I know him, his eyes have judged my soul before. The red beard, he is...I mouth the word, "the king." something mysteriously intriguing walks with him, as he stands now over me. Threatened, vulnerable, and afraid I shrink. Half anticipating his wrath, his hand settles lightly on my shoulder and I flinch, cringing, as a cry struggles to go unnoticed. I summon my courage, looking up at the pair of blues, all I see in his stars is a calm seriousness, and pity, compassion. Wide eyed, still I linger. His lips part and he speaks to me, " my lady, you are so utterly shaken, come come." he draws me up, careful with me as of I were a delicate adornment. Confused I am Drawn into his strong arms. then my world begins to spin, like deja vu and I stand alone. It happens over and over again. Zooming, panning the view. Rushing into me, as I relive the scene. I am alone. His blue eyes still visible in mine.

THE QUEEN IS DEAD (part 1) by Queen Kitteh

I look upon the somber procession, my breath pools and lingers about my lips. My eyes scan the crowd, some sobbing, others staring with fallen eyes. I draw a deep breath, the air pierces my lungs, a thousand sharp knives. The sting of the wind draws tears from the corners of my eyes, they icily leak down my cheeks. There is a certain devastation, a sorrow, that is encamped about this winter procession. The medieval line of royalty, nobles, knights, all men of position and rank step to the melodies of sadness sounding in their hearts. My eyes frisk them and search them, embarrassed to look upon them I blush, my gaze falls. Carefully they wander up again, my cheeks burning in the cold breath of winter. Only to find the clearest pair of blues judging my soul. Involuntarily my eyes search the bearded face. My cold hands are drawn to my body. The season, the death, all things melancholy are dancing about the atmosphere around us. The eyes, the face, they are carried away in the procession. But my heart is fluttering. I no longer notice anything in detail, only bits and pieces of color and painful sounds. I am haunted. The clear blue eyes are still looking at me, even though their owner has all but walked away. Who am I to look upon such as these? Who am I to allow my heart to flutter at the un attainable? I am startled from this trance at the sound of the ending procession. And a last "God save the Queen." Followed by the speech of the clergyman Over the royal grave. Reality is materializing, now tears of sincerity fill my eyes, too. I am pouring out my soul for a great woman, a woman whose presence never graced mine. With emotions greater than I know, and tears pouring down my face, I swallow to whisper, too frightened to hear the words..."The Queen is dead." A gasp having said it, hurried glances around me feeling others glances radiate into me. Startled and then fear having realized the blue eyes that haunt me are those of a king.

I NEED TO FIND HAPPINESS by Queen Kitteh

I need to find happiness. I thought I found it. But all that's happened Is more of the same. It gets so old, watching the faces fade away. I cant change a thing, I can't make people stay. I lose myself, I lose my soul, I lose the dreams and goals. All that's been stacked high upon my shoulders is toppling over. How much longer can I balance? How much longer can I hold? The truth is painful, bitter even. Grasping searching. I'm tired of being empty, Brimming with apathy, hungering for things I can't find. I've no drive, no flame to guide. My stars are clouded. Just like my mind. But the thing is, I'm fading, I'm running out of time. My life is slipping, I'm tearing, I'm burning. Ripping. At the seams. Disappointment so evil, life so cruel. When will I open again, blossom, flower, grow and refuel? The thing is i just dont know. So I'll craft a tale, rewrite the lines, I'll give myself a second chance, to live to breathe, to shatter these chains that bind. She will be my dreams, the things I see deep within me. Bright and beautiful, new, and clean. I'll work hard to fulfill her, create, restore, and redeem. I'll ignite this flame, what once in a life time can only bring, now extinguished, and in its light, hope, peace, a second chance at this fight. A beginning to this end, I will. Finally. Mend.

MYSTERY by Destiny

MYSTERY You're intriguing and mysterious, and very self reserved, but id let to get to get to know you more, a friendship well deserved! You move around so silently your often never seen, but i notice you and wonder where is it that you've been? Im fascinated by your charm, enticed its plain to see, i look for you but often find you're looking back at me. The mystery and silence has me hooked under your spell, I'll find the truth and get to you, i do this very well. There's a secret that you hold within, and pain somewhere i see, I'll find the truth and talk to you, please put your trust in me. Im learning and Im liking what i know of you so far, so let me in and talk to me remove that iron bar. I know that you are lovable and only time will tell ..if we could be good friends and know each other well

PLAYED by Destiny

played You thought you had it figured out, you're clever words and perfect song. But you don't know what Im about, I was playing the game all along. The feeling that began to grow, The words i said were all an act, I'm good at putting on a show, And now you want me to react? Goodbye my friend you played it well, BUt i was in.control of you,You chose the wrong girl i never fell, The role reversed and u had no clue. I'll smile and hold my head high, cause countries you're best to play me, but now i have to Say goodbye, For you and i were never meant to be.

REBUILD REPAIR RENEW by Charms (Zachy)

(verse one)

For so long I've smiled through the pain

Tears falling more than spring time rain

When I found you I thought I'd be whole 

But tearing me down seems your only goal

Did I really deserve your sadist eyes

What did I do to deserve such a prize

I should never have felt your fiery wrath

Oh fate why did you put me on that painful path 

EVERYTHING I DO by LadyRemington

Everything I do 

And everything I say 

Never seems to come out the right way 

I tell you I love 

And it makes you cry 

Love shouldn't bring tears 

To your beautiful eyes 

I don't know how to show you 

Or tell you how I feel 

But girl I promise you 

My love for you is real 

I can't go a minute 

Without silently breathing your name 

But you never believe a word I say 

You only always say 

Okayy..

Do you know 

What those dots do to me? 

They stare at me hauntingly 

Ominously concealing what you want to say 

No matter what I do 

I always fucking hurt you

I'm not the perfect image 

In your pretty mind 

You've set me so far apart 

So high and lifted up 

That no one could ever 

Live up to the memory 

You have of me 

I was never so perfect 

Never good enough 

But yet you see 

A perfect me 

When I can't be that 

It shatters your dreams

And breaks your broken heart 

I'm only human 

I make mistakes

I never can say the words the right way 

I can't do things 

The way you want me to 

I can't be who I am 

In your memory 

No matter how hard I try 

No matter how many tears 

You and I cry 

Nothing can ever be 

As perfect as it was 

In your memory.

ONLY YOU by Destiny

ONLY YOU From the moment that i met you and you came into my life, you listened and you helped me in my troubled times of strife. You listened through my madness with your warm and caring charm, and you stayed with me intently til i once again was calm. I keep my feelings hidden, play my cards close to my chest. But now i can express to you, you too deserve the best. Times that once were lonely are now filled with joy and pleasure. For now i know Im not alone and you i'll always treasure. Two hearts that once were broken can now begin to mend. For we found each other in this life we Dont have to pretend. You make me smile when Im sad in that special way you do, and make me laugh when i am crying....i love that about you. We're getting closer day by day and Im warm instead of cold, you know my darkest secrets, and stories once untold. Feeling keep on growing with a connection from the start, your name will leave an imprint deep within my heart.

I FEAR SO MANY THINGS by Poison Ivy

I fear so many things,

Even though I should fear only fear itself.

I fear the stab of betrayal,

Lost in fear of loving someone who don't love me back,

I fear the future, and what it might hold,

Especially among past decisions that striked fear to my heart.

I fear the everlasting darkness,

After the fear of light seemed to be forever fading.

Among the many fears of being a forgotten discard.

I fear the sound of a clock passing time,

Silently hidden in the fear of time passing too slowly.

I fear the pull of hunger,

Between the days of fear of gaining the weight.

I fear so many things,

Yet fear is something I can’t seem to fear.

SAD EYES STARE BLANKLY FORWARD by LadyRemingtonRemington

Sad eyes stare blankly forward 

Numb skin 

Untouched by the frozen wind 

Broken heart barely manages a beat 

Frozen tears forever on her cheek 

Lifeless body 

Motionless mind 

Something deep inside 

Broken 

Shattered 

Beyond repair 

She leaves a life full of despair 

No one stayed 

Alone she laid 

Day after day 

Forever frozen this way 

To go back and ask her 

What happened to break her 

Her simple answer 

No one cared 

No one saw the pain in her eyes 

No one heard her mournful cries 

Cuts and blood 

Tears and pain 

Loneliness and nothingness 

Pushed her over the edge 

So she sat down on the cold ground 

She slowly froze 

Nothing bothers her anymore 

Lack of friends 

Or someone to care 

Never again will bring her to tears 

No more she'll cut 

Nothing to feel 

Frozen body 

Frozen mind 

Forever frozen 

In a broken moment of time

USE ME by Queen Lizzie (Kitteh)

Use me, beat me, bruise me. I'm just an empty glass house, my windows shattered, my doors full of cracks. Invisible, transparent, miserable. The sky is crying, the tear drops playing melodies on my glass. The notes changing as the tears fill my empty glass, seeping through all of the large cracks. An explosion, a rock hurled to the ground, the world trying to tear me down. The winds whistling through me, covering me, wooing me. Refreshing breath, as the smoke clears, reviving me from this sorry death. A shaking, a thundering, vibrating my glass. My heart beating once again, Casting off this see-through mask. I awaken, my windows shattered, my doors still filled with cracks, but I am standing, clinging, rising, hanging onto my cloud. It's still farther down, no matter how close I feel to the ground. You can break me, bruise me, beat me, hurt me, harm me, charm me, it's all the same, no matter how I bleed, I will still be standing on my feet. I find joy in the pain, a satisfaction, something to strive for, with hope burning, a bright and mighty flame. Melting my glass, shifting, shaping, fixing my large cracks. Red hot scars, reminders, symbols, adding strength. Fiery stars streaking my invisibility. A design, unique at last, setting me free, no longer touched by this transparency. As I Rise higher and higher, my gallery of broken hearts start to dissolve, the hard metal beginning to drift down, beautiful, each settling, a bright red flower petal. Filling the sky, the bruises, the wounds, each shard of glass, blooming, blossoming, finally...at last. I'm no longer broken, I'm no longer shattered, I'm no longer just an empty glass.

LOVE MAYBE by Amaranth *

Sat cross-legged on the floor, she looked up, he was busy working and didn't seem to notice her presence. Her eyes drifted to his crotch, no tell-tale bulge, but even so, she bit her lip, fighting the urge to act on her instinct.

This was not the first time she had sat on the office floor, waiting. The silence was palpable, neither needing to speak, both knowing where this would end.

WHY by Destiny

It's time for me to start listening to me

The day has come to set myself free

My head and ny heart always at war

My head's saying go but my heart shuts the door

Suffering each day with the hurt and the pain

Wanting you to love me again and again

I somehow find strength to stand my ground

Your explosion of anger is coming back around

There's nowhere To go, i can't reach the door

I turn away, please stop,i can't take no more

Numb yet in pain, here i still stand

Flinching and scared at the twitch of your hand

I can't get away, there is nowhere to run

Just ride out the storm, the worst of it is done

Blurred from my tears or the thought in my head

I can't seem to focus, inside i am dead

Crying and angry i pray this is the last

Then u threaten again just as you walk past

I look out of the window, i begin to sob

"why are you crying, just shut your gob"

Im banging my head against a brick wall

I scream if you cared, why are you so cruel?

Then like a switch as you turn on a light

"I love you baby, are you alright?"

Friends aren't stupid they know what goes on

So i lie to protect you and say nothing's wrong

Gradually the pain starts to heal and fade

How long can i keep up with this terrible charade

It's your reputation that must stay in tact

You'll do it again and i know that's a fact

I cannot predict when the next rage will be

But deep down inside, you're killing me. 

I LONG FOR THE SWEET CARESS by Poison Ivy

I long for the sweet caress of your hand, the tenderness of your lips,

Our bodies pushed up against one and other,

Our hearts racing to the beat of the clock,

You look at me with such delight, 

You have a sparkle in your eye,

I look at you and smile brightly 

Cause it's always been you,

You rub my cheek and smile at me,

I get shivers up my spine, 

As you lean into me my breathing deepens, 

As you hold me tight and stroke my hair

You lips tough my as I close my eyes,

I'm in paradise, a world lost in time, 

We kiss so passionately that when you let go,

My eyes are still closed,

You kiss my cheek I open my eyes,

I whisper softly "I love you and always will till the day I die"

I'M GONNA GO AN SLIT MY WRISTS by LadyRemington

I'm gonna go an slit my wrists 

Hear the blood going drip drip drip 

Feel the life flowing out of me 

I'll clog it up 

When my vision blurs 

Stop the bleeding 

Before any real damage occurs 

I'll rip my nose right off my face 

I'll cut out my tongue 

And throw it in your face 

I'll rip out all my hair 

Cut off both my ears 

I'll chop my feet off 

Then shoot my knee 

I'm gonna die having fun 

I'll fill myself so full of lead 

That there's not a bullet left to lodge in my head 

I can't scream in agony 

With all the pain I've felt 

I'll pull my eyes out 

So I can't cry 

This is the last thing I'll write before I die 

I hope it's legible cause I can't see 

But let me tell you how much you hurt me 

You broke my heart 

And crushed my soul 

The thought of losing you 

Took my last bit of sanity 

I'm gonna die 

I'll bleed to death 

I'll be on the front of the local paper 

I'll be the person accused of insanity 

Or perhaps demonic possession 

I don't know and I don't care 

I'm setting myself on fire 

The last poem ever written 

Fueled by love 

Hate and desire.

WOODEN by Amaranth

Pain, thumping, throbbing

Eye's blurred

Vision and hearing muffled

Up close sounds like underwater voices

Squinting brings no clarity

Brain slow

Sluggish thought

Thinking to do those things that normally take no thought to do

Too loud, too bright, oh the pain

Someone bring me the welcome envelope of darkness

The everlasting comfort of silence

So I don't need to hear or think

Someone lock me away in an insulated room

Where I can be alone and not have to think for a while

This wooden brain needs isolation to recover

Amaranth

3 March 2012

FROM THE MOMENT I MET YOU by Destiny

From the moment that i met you, i was hooked under your spell. So now I'm going to be true, and now my feelings i will tell.

Your smile had me captivated, with dimples in your cheeks. There's no way this could be tainted, A bond Thats strong and not too weak

I opened up my heart to you, And told you secrets locked away. I only ever trust a few, So with you they please must stay

You have seen me when I'm happy, And when Im sad or feeling blue.

You looked into my eyes and see, The hurt and pain Im feeling too.

I keep my feelings well hidden, play my cards close to my chest. I met you all of a sudden, and you truly are the best

My feelings for you keep growing, you could never disappoint me. There's no way this could be slowing, I'm in lust it's plain to see.

I don't know if i should say this, it could make us fall apart. Although i simply can't resist, you have got a piece of my heart!

I HURT YOU by Poison Ivy

I hurt you and i hurt myself by hurting you. I cant change what i have done. But all i can say is that i wont do the same mistake again,

I know my one mistake has changed everything.

It has broke our relationship. Please come back! 

Don't give me such a big punishment, I really love you. i can’t stress how sorry I am. 

The moments we shared together were full of fun & joy. 

Please forgive me, 

I'll miss you so much,

And when I say I'm sorry I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

WORDS By Queen

Words cannot express the way I am feeling. It gives me great pleasure to be kneeling. But my tears and sadness will need healing. My tears will only bring me sympathy but my sweat,courage and will will bring you back to me. Your the best thing that happen to in this virtual world,Your my friend,my love, My one true Master and my brother in spirit. My secret dream is to get to know you spiritually to have a deeper connection with you and hope my stupidity wont make me lose you for good. Even though I might not succeed or be happy having the you the way I would love,but I am happy your still there my dare Lord Dayaan my dark love. Sincerely: Your true slave Queen

PIPE DREAMS by Amaranth

Waking in the morning feeling relaxed, refreshed, awake

Gazing upon the man I love, sleeping peacefully next to me

Sharing conversation in a sun soaked room over a good cup of coffee

You read the papers while I read a book my love

Being happy

Being free

My son exhibiting no violence towards me

Being able to listen beyond the noise

Find my inner peace and calm

Pipe Dreams

Amaranth

3 March 2012

WOE TO MY ENEMY by Amber

Woe to my enemy for the things that are far told,

no mercy will be shown for my heart has run cold. 

You chose the wrong man to constantly pursue,

now listen to all of things that will happen to you.

I shall rip open your stomach and tear your guts out, 

as I throw them like ribbons in the air all about. 

Your skin will burn as I coat it with lye 

and push 10 inch nails straight into the lids of your eyes. 

I'll rip off your nails smiling at your dismay 

and cut out your muscles putting them on display 

for all of the people to see, that this is what happens when you decide to betray me. 

I'll tear out your heart and switch it with your brain, you'll sit in hell for all eternity forever feeling my pain. By amber Samaros

SITTING ON THE GROUND, STARING AT THE DARK SKY by LadyRemington

Sitting on the ground 

Staring at the dark sky 

Hearing only the distant sound 

Of another's painful cry 

There once was a fire 

Burning in my eye 

Pain and sorrow caused it to retire 

I almost wish to die 

Drenched in blood and tears 

Teardrops falling as I choke on a sigh 

Here I stand facing my deepest fears 

The cliff face is ever so high 

I think I'm going to soar 

And see what it feels like to fly 

I can hear the sea's distant roar 

No more I'll cry 

As I through myself into the air 

I let out a scream as to the waves I fly 

The wind wiping through my hair 

This is it I'm gonna die 

I look at the stars 

They glisten in my eye

The memory of you written in the stars 

Your face forever in the night sky

I RUN by Queen Lizzie (Kitteh)

run as fast I can, my heart pulsing violently in my chest. It's all falling away, it's all melting away. The wind breathes on my face, but I run faster. It's my time to say goodbye, to let it all slip through my fingers. Tears well in my eyes, because I know in my soul that it's time to let go. My heart beats like a drum keeping me at a run, nipping at my heals, scolding me further. But I slow in my flight. I stop and turn my face, methodically, a slow blink, and my jaw falls lightly. "is this what I was running from?" the sun greets my eyes, I look away, blushing, it's as if the sun is my comforter calling my name. The birds fly past me, brushing against my hair, I giggle, they whisper, "come." I look further still, there is no path trampled from which I came. Spinning my arms outstretched, I'm all alone. Is this the place I was afraid of, is this what captured my fears and my sorrow? If this is loneliness let me stay here. Now no matter which direction I run I feel in my soul a warmth, my course is for the wind to decide. And peacefully my clenched fists loosen and satisfaction sweeps across my face, a smile raising like a flag. Voices serenade me in my spirit, I whisper syllables of satisfaction. Allas,There is no tomorrow like today.

HEALING TEARS by Amaranth

Tears roll down my face

Eyes red from the sting of crying

Voice choked, I can hardly speak

I know you are not lying

Strangers glance with concerned eyes

Not knowing any reasons behind

In their hearts they're reaching out,

Comforting and kind

Their kindness is not need though

It is the power of your love I feel

These are tears of happiness and joy

The love that helps me heal

Amaranth

2 March 2012

I STAND ALONE by LadyRemington

I stand alone 

Atop the world 

Lonely and set apart 

I can hear the screams

And cries of pain 

And it breaks my very heart

So much pain 

And suffering 

Everyone is dying 

Why is it I'm alone 

Going to continue on living 

How did I escape 

Why is no one else up here 

Am I the only one alive 

Am I to live alone for all my years 

A single tear slides down my cheek 

As I hear the teacher my name speak 

No I'm not physically alone 

But for how I feel inside 

Alone would be better 

As I watch all else die.

I ARRIVE HOME by Redcurls *

I arrive home, to find Master waiting for me in His favorite chair. 

I slip off my socks and shoes, and walk to the center of the room. He watches as I take off my scrub top, revealing my black silky bra against my porcelain breasts..unsnapping the back, I let my breasts fall from their captivity into the free air, the cold hitting my nipples and making them hard. 

Glancing at Master, and grinning, I grab my thin tank top and slide it on over my head, my nipples visible through the thin white cotton as I pull it over them and down over my waist. Turning away from Master, I untie my black scrub pants and slide them down over my ass, looking back to see Him watching, letting them caress my hips as I bend forward revealing my red lace thong.

I HAVE KILLED by Ariana SIMI

I have killed you and nothing I say will change it ive hurt you and I can't undue it I love you but I used you nothing I will ever due or say will change your heart it's all my fault asking for forgiveness is but a joke ive hurt you beyond repair wondering if my death would repair the heart my life destoyed

SOMETIMES ITS JUST by Amaranth

There's comfort in the envelope of neverending darkness

Somewhere to hear your own thoughts

Your escape from the banality of every day life

Time to release the tension

Sobbing, screaming, bleeding until there is nothing left to give

Then sleep, the sleep of the exhausted

Fitful, haunted, disturbed sleep

But always on awakening you can step towards the warm light

And enjoy the chaos of society again

Amaranth

2 March 2012

LAST NIGHT I DREAMED by LadyRemington

Last night I dreamed 

And in my dream was you 

You were my mom 

And you loved me so 

Every day when I woke up 

You'd hug me and say 

"I love you, have a wonderful day."

I knew I was dreaming 

Cause in my dream was only me and you 

But I was happy 

And you were too 

When I cried you wiped my eyes 

When I needed a friend 

You were always there 

You always listened 

As I shared my fears 

You loved me and cared 

While I was sleeping 

Tears rolled down my cheek 

Cause somewhere inside 

I knew this was too good to be true 

You're just a distant figure 

No mother to me 

The mother of an acquaintance 

Is all you'll ever be 

But in my dream you loved me 

And cared so much for me 

I felt the same way about you 

You held me as I cried 

And loved me

More then anyone ever has 

The perfect mother 

I've always wished for 

My wish came true 

In my dream 

As I dreamt of you.

MY RANT by babsy face*

i would llike to preface my... rant? by saying these are the jumbled thoughts of a semi switchy subbie with waaaaaaaaaaaay too much time on my hands and thoroughly enjoying being back in school *giggles* i over think and constantly contradict myself  adds to my charm... but these thoughts are just that, MY thoughts, not personally related to anything.. just want us A/all to take time and think about things and question, grow and learn, and hopefully these thoughts of mine help provoke discussion

ABANDONMENT by Amaranth

Flashing coloured images pass before my eyes

Seeing nothing but a blur of colour

Nothing but colour and light

The ear piercing squeal fills the room

Someone in the distance asks the squealer to stop

Warm blooded halfling sat next to me

Shouting for food while chewing the food in front of him

Someone in the far distance says hello

There is no response

No acknowledgement

The deadening is slow

The robot comes forward

The human hides

At least there will be no more tears

And no pain

As the human is abandoned altogether

So happy they are sat next to the me shaped robot

Feelings dead

Fulfiling basic needs

Individuality gone

Will they notice the dying human inside?

Amaranth

12 March 2012

SITTING IN MY BEDROOM, LIGHTING SHIT ON FIRE by LadyRemington

Sitting in my bedroom 

Lighting shit on fire 

Just small things for now 

To quench my pyromaniac desires 

A notebook here

An old shirt or two 

Nothing anyone's gonna miss 

Ohh yeah I burned my dad's favorite shoes 

No one notices the small tufts of smoke

Or smells the burning paper 

These small things don't work anymore 

So I'll burn an abandoned shack

As I watch the flames go up 

I feel something in me crack 

I'm light the whole town 

And watch the suckers burn 

I'll start at the schoolhouse 

With gasoline 

And I'll blow up the whole damn thing 

Next all the churches and restaurants

Where families gather 

Then all of your houses everyone in the town 

I'll bar the doors and kill em all 

Cause no one ever cared 

For the sad, lonely pyromaniac 

They left me all alone 

Made fun of me and bullied me 

Tormented every day 

Now it's time to light the town 

I'll make every sucker pay 

And as I watch flames swallow the town 

I hear their screams of pain 

I drench myself in gasoline 

And set myself on fire 

The last sound this town will hear 

Is screams of pain and fear 

Then they'll wonder 

Is that laughing I hear? 

And if reincarnation is true 

I'll come back 

For round two.

HOLES by Ariana SIMI

Holes, holes in all we say but never saying how we truly feel. Holding it back behind a brick wall. We don't even try to pretend anymore. SURFACE LIVING. Barely breaking the waters to the surface for air.

HOW CAN YOU? by Poison Ivy

ow can you you love someone that's never around?

How can love them if they make you frown,

How do you know that late at night when your in bed is he thinking of you instead,

How do you know what true love is?

If the person you are meant to be loving is never around.

Can you tell that he's loving you the way he used to?

Do you know if he's thinking of you like you think of him?

All these questions running trough my mind,

And I can honestly answer by saying,

I do not know what love is anymore.

SHE SAT AT HER COMPUTER by babsy face *

She sat at her computer, typing furiously, and at the sound of the key in the door, it did nothing but hurry her wild thoughts along. Writing these things she could never ask for, she loved her writing, living through those people in her head. The slave girl taken at every opportunity, and used in such a way could make most men blush, the maid in the house whose chambers were invaded at night, a hand over her mouth to muffle her pleasured screams. Last but not least, and her personal favorite, the secretary that gets locked in the conference room. The man in charge approaches her, makes an offer he knows she can’t refuse as she’s backed into the table, his hands surprisingly rough as they slide up over her thighs unsnapping the garters underneath her skirt, she lets out a soft moan and a halfhearted attempt at “no”.

STARS AND BROKEN SKIN by LadyRemington

I told you that I'd love you 

Until my last breath escapes me 

So to show the world my feelings 

I carved your initials 

The day we started dating 

And a heart 

in different places on my arm 

Then you told me 

I can't be happy 

If you're with me 

So every night I sat 

Gazing at the stars 

Looking for a shooting one 

To wish that you'd come back someday 

I waited till the sun 

Came creeping o'er the trees 

I waited till the ground 

Once more did freeze 

I waited until 

Tears froze on my face 

I waited day in and out 

For darkness to cover this place 

I waited until 

Each star reflected your face 

Ne'er a shooting star did I see 

Although I waited 

Until time waited for me 

So I devised a plan 

A wish to make every single day 

I slowly but surely carved a shooting star 

Every time I see it 

Out of the corner of my eye 

I make a wish and silently say 

"My beautiful Star 

Please return to me one day."

MISTAKES by Ariana SIMI

ou constantly throw my mistakes in my face not knowing your pushing me towarda my end. Just a slip of that cold steel is welcome. I welcome the physical pain to escape the pain in my heart. Its like my veins SC

..scream for release each beat of my heart adds to the tattoo of my soul song for you

A SILENT TEAR by Poison Ivy

Close your eyes and you will see

All the memories that you have of me

Just sit back relax and you will find

I'm really still there inside your mind

Don't cry for me now I'm gone

Was your choice, this can't be un done,

I'll still think of you day and night,

Maybe you should've put up more of a fight,

I loved you madly, but it wasn't enough,

You broke my heart and called my bluff,

Now that I'm gone, I'm nothing but the past,

But I have no doubt that you'll move on fast,

This was always your way, 

So I just wanted to say, that when you think of me, 

Please don't cry, this was your choice, 

You chose to say goodbye.

Suzanne 28.2.2012

I SEE YOU HURTING by Knightly Raider

I see you there hurting and scared. The pain in your eyes piercing my heart. How do I go on knowing I've caused this? When all I want to do is hold you. Kiss you. Warm you. The awkward silence filling the air. The stabbing pain. The knife at my wrist. A crooked smile as I give a twist. My blood flows out fingers soaked. Breath fading as I gasped and choked. Alone. So alone.

EMO LOVE by amber

I could slit my wrist

And watch them bleed

See my heart up 

Give u the key

Maybe even beat myself

Till I'm black and blue

Just to make myself believe 

Im in love with you 

I could start a million fires

While watching people run and burn

As long as I'm in your head

I know I shall never learn

And as I try to hide those burnt dead bodies in a small litte urn

My love for u is like a body

On fire whose bones shall never burn by amber Samaros

HOT WET TEARS by Ariana SIMI

Hot wet tears that you never see the scars on my skin that were for you im suffocating without you do you know im here can you see me im right next to you but to you I no longer exist moving on and not looking back

IT'S ALL RELATIVE by Amaranth

Two months we have been together

No, it seems much longer than that

I scratch my head, redo my math

Yes; I forgot to carry that...

Its really 60 days, I say

You look quizzically at me

Isn't that the same, you say

Oh there's just no fooling thee

A FRIEND IN HEAVEN by Poison Ivy

7 years today they took you away from us. Sleep well Princess you are safe now. I dedicate this poem to you.

I sit around and wonder,

and watch the days go by.

I look at your picture

and ask, why did you have to die?

I look to sky and see you shinning bright, it's the only thing that helps me get to sleep at night.

You were such a beautiful girl so charming and bright.Then one day that nasty man took you out of sight.

I've laughed and I've cried through the sadness and joy. For you were my friend and no longer near. 

I have so many memories so close to my heart and I know in my heart that we're not that far apart. 

The day that we buried you was not the end for was a journey about to begin.

So babygirl rock on up there I know your in spirt I can feel you there.

Even though I will miss you,

and I'll think about you everyday

you'll always be my best friend,

and that's all I have to say.

ALONE AND SCARED by destiny

Alone and scared, is anyone there? I cry in the night, doesn't anyone care? Left all alone, with the shame i must face, no one can know, Im such a disgrace. Numbing the hurt, behind the pain i try to hide, maybe no one see my tears or the scars inside. This morning i woke, just like any other day, tonight my innocence gone, stolen away. Was it something i said? Was it something i did? I blame myself for the position i'm in. Where is this god? i think...even he doesn't care, i look around for him but he isn't there. Feeling dirty, like garbage, like someone who's bad, i think to myself no one else will ever want me, maybe he's all I've got. After all, he did this, maybe he loves me in some way..I've nothing left to live for i guess i can take it for one more day...