Monday, May 21, 2012

MY ARMS WON'T MOVE by LadyRemington


My arms won't move 
My legs can't bend 
Toes don't twitch 
Eyes can't see 
Ears can't hear 
This numbness 
Once more is gripping me 
Thoughts racing through my mind 
Forcibly coming to a stop 
The only thing moving 
Is my beating heart 
Numbness, inside and out 
Freezing me to this spot 
I can't feel 
Can't comprehend 
Time and feelings 
Mean nothing to me 
Apathy.
Numbness. 
Nothing.
Darkness enclosing 
Blackness embracing 
Something inside me 
Unwittingly decides 
My heart will go on beating 
My eyes sewn shut 
My mouth kept closed 
The silent breathing and beating 
Keeping me alive 
It's the times like this 
When nothing is in my mind 
Sanity frays 
As a saint somewhere prays 
Beating, breathing 
Numbness. 
Life.
Nothing.
How long will the numbness last this time 
How much time will slip away 
How long will I feel nothing 
Go through all the motions 
Of only being alive 
Breathing, beating 
Life isn't worth living 
Darkness. 
Numb. 
As time slips away 
I've been like this nearly all day 
Quiet, numb 
Only alive 
Nothing to live for 
Dead inside 
A walking body 
Lifeless eyes 
Voiceless opinion 
Friendless soul 
Numb, dead, asleep 
But for how much longer,
Alive?

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