WATCHING SOMEONE DIE by kitkat

Watching someone die

I’ve done it all my life

I’ve seen some horrific things

Seen gun shots and a stabbing with a knife

I’ve seen double amputations

Seen strokes obliterate lives

I’ve seen courage beyond comparison

I’ve seen bitter and twisted lies

There are a few things that take me

Push me well over the line

They make me turn glazed eyes

Muttering that I’m ok and fine

I think towards my father

A man I always respected and loved

When I used to argue with my mother

In his direction I was shoved

I was given a stern word

But a hug to show his love

But soon enough I won’t have that

He’ll be protecting me from above

I’m not looking for a miracle

I know such things are all lies

But I’m optimistic in God’s good nature

When at night I stare and watch the suns rise

Such beauty in a new beginning

Bitterness in the end of night

The end is coming closer

I know I will lose all my light

In memories I must uphold

My first ride on my pink bike

I remember when he was ill and didn’t mow

The back yard was an adventurous mountain hike

I remember him working away a lot

And waiting sat on the front drive

In these memories I must remember

Keep him always close and alive

I wish I could kiss his stubble

And smile at his receding hair

But soon enough I won’t have him at all

I’m trying so hard not to put my mind there

I must enjoy him while I have him

As memories can become tainted 

I will keep my eyes bright for him though

I must keep my daughter smile painted