I HANG ON TIGHTLY by Black Rose

I hang on tightly to that "perpetual child" inside. Maybe sometimes I seem immature, but really it's a defense. As I get older and am forced to "grow up" I have to leave more and more things behind that I enjoy, and I have to let a lot of great people walk out of my life, so don't judge me too harshly when I do something silly, bc trust me, I have felt my share of pain. 


When I laugh too loudly or get on your nerves, please remember I have spent twice as much time crying. When I stop and look at something average like it is amazing, try to understand that I knew a time when I thought I would never get a chance to do it again. Never doubt that I have it in me to deal with the real world, or that u can lean on me, bc if you are one of the few real friends I have left, I will lean back on you, and when u walk away I might fall down, I might cry, I might think its the end of the world... 


But that child in me forgets the pain from my skinned knees and the bruises from the fall, and will be ready to throw my head back and spin in circles until I'm dizzy just to laugh at how good it feels to be alive. That child in me is resilient and is able to accept I'm not in control of everything and can't explain everything, some things just are and all I can do is accept it, cry, and then forget about it and enjoy what's in front of me. That child lets me jump out of the swing without worrying about how much it will hurt to land, bc the child knows for those few brief moments I'll feel like I'm flying, and I will hang on to that frivolous child as long as I can bc I never want to quit enjoying the little things. If I didn't let myself look at the world thru that child's eyes, my vision would always be blurred with tears. I would always know that the landing was coming, the pain would be there, and I would be to afraid to let go and jump. 


That child protects me from becoming the adult who is too afraid of failing or getting hurt to take a chance. That child lets me live and love and laugh, and that child keeps me from having a life full of "what if's". I'm sorry if I annoy you, I'm sorry if u think I don't take things seriously enough, but I never regret what I have done, only the things I didn't do, so I will hang on to that strong willed, stubborn, resilient, fearless child until I'm too old to remember how good it feels to be young.