I hate being here
I hate it so much
You always yell
Throw and things and scream
Yell and fuss
You're no father to me
And you
What's your deal
Your so apathetic and oblivious
You don't even know your kids
You make fun of me
Yeah so what I cut
Guess who drove me to that insanity
You and my freaking father
Y'all don't love me like a parent should
Yeah I put up walls
But what kid don't
Parents are supposed to be kind
Always there for there kids
But growing up
You were never there
My dad was never there
When y'all are home
You yell and scream
Fuss and fight
Call me names and freak out
I refuse to call this home
Cause home ain't what this is
This is the hell in which
I have been forced to exist
This house ain't a home
Home what does that even mean
I envy the girls I see
Who's mother's apparently love them
They have a home but not me
Cause no love is here
No one cares or shows they do
So go on make some more fun
As I slit my wrists deeper each time
Listening to someone sing
A song about how I feel
Only difference is they get stoned
I wonder what drugs would feel like
Could they put out the flames of this hell I live in
Would they make it better
Or only make it worse
Why couldn't you just have loved me as a kid
Hugged me every now and then
Why do I have to seek love from other mother's
Why couldn't you be more like them
You could have loved me
Could have cared
But instead you grew apathetic and cold
Distant and frightening
Full of animosity and resentment
Why couldn't you just have loved me
Like I always wanted you too
But it's too late to save me
Too much pain has been caused by you
Its too late for you to be the mom you should be
So I'll stay alone, unloved, and spiteful
Bitter, cold, lugubrious, lonely and hurting
And no one will see
Only my razor blade, God, and me
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