Laying in this cold ground
Looking at the sky
Thought of suicide
Wafting through my mind
Flung from the twentieth story
And landing on the ground
That's too messy for me.
A bullet through the head
But I can't pull the trigger on an empty gun
Hanging from a tree
A noose around my neck
I've tried that too.
Slit wrists
Blood filling up the tub
Too much blood to leave
To be cleaned up.
Hit by a car?
Poison?
Drowning?
None of that's for me
I can get through life
I just have to find
The will to survive
Without the lack of you
Killing me
Thoughts of you
Bring a smile to my crying eyes
Memories of things you said
Make me smile
And for a moment
Everything feels okayy.
I just have to purpose
To get through everyday
Only thinking of you
Never speaking your name
Or talking to you.
I have to figure out
How to live
Without my invisible friend.
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