My pulse sharpened into a beat I couldn’t count
My eyes blurred as I saw what I had found
I felt my chest weaken with un-dealt emotions
I felt my heart and head cruelly bound
Family is but a word I used to know
Where unity triumphs over strangers’ rage
I never knew the meaning of the word family
It was crossed out from my book at such a young age
I thought as I got older that ties can be made
But lying to myself hurt more than you know
I always pretended that i cared not for all they said
I stood so tall and strong with every low blow
But now I am a grown adult
I realise nothing will ever change
Doesn’t matter where they all live
Their love for me I doubt will re-arrange
I write today as I am kicked once again
Staring at a blank cold screen
Is it because I am a piece of shit on their show?
Or is it just that to them I am unclean
I cannot change who I am
They made me all
So I will continue through life
Making myself proud walking tall
One day the kids will find me
And true aunty I will be
Hopefully blood is thicker than water
and hopefully they will be granted the right to see
I will be the best god damn aunty
If I get the opportunity to show
Maybe they will not have the chance to discover
Maybe they will never have me to get to know
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