MY PAST CAME BACK TO HAUNT ME by kitkat

My past came back to haunt me

I think as I fall within the sheets

I close my eyes so god dam tight

Scream along with how my heart beats

I was a fool and a complete idiot

I know exactly what I was doing

I could of ran to my support group

But instead I did nothing

I swallowed down with pride and pain

And swore that I would be just fine

I lay in my bed and locked my door

In this struggling I am cursed to confine

I felt the rush and held on tight

As my body fell beneath the floor

I heard my housemate come home early

I heart the slamming of the door

The echo bounced up and all around me

And hurt my mind to hear

It was in this pathetic curled up state

I fell into a deep sleep with no one to love near

I was stupid when I awakened

So full of pain I could not bare

It was then that you contacted me

Showing me that you were still there

I felt numb and falling quickly

Into another place I didn’t wanna go

So I ran to the bathroom with a struggle

I told death to fuck off and no

I crawled back to my self-proclaimed tomb

And lay upon my cold deserted bed

Three hours later I awakened

Sure that now I should be dead

I took all I knew and took too less

To do what surely must be took

Maybe one day this knowledge I will share

Maybe I will find someone who gives a fuck