Yesterday I was stupid
Selfish and beyond control
I can feel myself falling again
I need some help out of my self dug hole
I’m scared of everything I am
And scared of everyone around
I am terrified of tomorrow
And my past still keeps me bound
Forthcoming events are cancelled
Excused made with such ease
I need some help and guidance here
As I sit on my hands and begging ‘please’
It’s a pre-written conclusion
Of what will happen of me
Perhaps I will make it from this
And maybe I will see clearly
The medical profession studies me
Making me sick and question all
I now have no control over my life
It is completely at the Dr’s call
S I try some different tablets
Arrange the balance of my brain
But I have come to one conclusion
Fate keeps everything the same again
No matter how many times I struggle
How many times I push myself more
There is always a thud in the recovery
Another slamming painful metal door
I need some help and support
If I am to remedy this painful curse
Or I will rot away from the inside
Or I fear I will become something worse
I am tired of the constant struggle
Grown tired of the constant fear
I’m sick of replaying all my past
Sick of losing all those I hold dear
Perhaps it would be best to leave all this
Give up like I have always known
I think that is a much better option
Than to go through this so alone
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