WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME by kitkat

What the fuck is wrong with me
Why cant I just eat like you?
What is this fucking voice screaming
Why do I do what I do?
When exactly will I be fixed
What cure is there to take
I cannot take this feeling
I feel like my life is so damn fake
I try to think of the reasoning
I know there is a reason for this
I know what I am doing is fucked up
But this feeling gives such bliss
I am in control of my life
In the minor aspect I allow
I know I am not doing so good
I see that as you look at me now
Everything is all changing
Like suddenly my body gives in
I know that this is beating me
I know I am letting it win
My ribs are slowly killing me
They lie and laugh at my smile
Why can’t I just be content
Cant I just accept this for a while
But noooo I have to continue
Not understanding the damage I do
I am sorry for all my fuck ups
I’m sorry for falling down on knees to you